My life at secondary school was hell (as seems to be the case with most people), it resulted in me seeking mental health care (and failing with various psychologists and psychiatrists until I found - for all its ills - Pozac as a way out)
Looking back, I can see myself as a trenchcoat mafia type - it wouldn't have taken many changes for me to have gone on a killing spree - had I not become a coder, its likely I might have experimented with explosives (the two areas are quite similar in a lot of ways). I certainly fantasised about killing several of my class'mates'. Had I ever made the decision to kill myself this might, potentially have been a way out - taking the people who had caused the problem with me.
there were several things which stopped me doing this:
The first was that, quite frankly I was too scared to kill myself - this is probably the reason I am still around today.
The second is that I hadn't thought of taking other people with me - had I seen the recent killings I would obviously be thinking differently
The third is an issue of availiability of weapons - I had access to an anarchist's cookbook, so I suppose I could have managed the bomb side of things had I wanted, but gun control in the UK would have made my getting any weapon nigh on impossible without lots of planning.
Had I killed people, my bedroom would have contained lists of those I wanted gone, it would have had my complaints against the world in general documented for future reference - these wouldn't have been related to any particular killing spree, only my general outlook at that period in my life.
I don't know the answer - if I did I would have been pushing at th government to implement it. It seems the people of Slashdot - no matter how educated - have no further workable solutions.
Frankly, school days were the worst days of my life. People, they do get better, but it takes time. Thankfully, you have a wide audience here at Slashdot who emphasise with you. Is there any way we can manage to perform some level of councilling and maybe provide a slightly brighter outlook on the world to those who are at their lowest ebb?
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This I agree with.
My life at secondary school was hell (as seems to be the case with most people), it resulted in me seeking mental health care (and failing with various psychologists and psychiatrists until I found - for all its ills - Pozac as a way out)
Looking back, I can see myself as a trenchcoat mafia type - it wouldn't have taken many changes for me to have gone on a killing spree - had I not become a coder, its likely I might have experimented with explosives (the two areas are quite similar in a lot of ways). I certainly fantasised about killing several of my class'mates'. Had I ever made the decision to kill myself this might, potentially have been a way out - taking the people who had caused the problem with me.
there were several things which stopped me doing this:
The first was that, quite frankly I was too scared to kill myself - this is probably the reason I am still around today.
The second is that I hadn't thought of taking other people with me - had I seen the recent killings I would obviously be thinking differently
The third is an issue of availiability of weapons - I had access to an anarchist's cookbook, so I suppose I could have managed the bomb side of things had I wanted, but gun control in the UK would have made my getting any weapon nigh on impossible without lots of planning.
Had I killed people, my bedroom would have contained lists of those I wanted gone, it would have had my complaints against the world in general documented for future reference - these wouldn't have been related to any particular killing spree, only my general outlook at that period in my life.
I don't know the answer - if I did I would have been pushing at th government to implement it. It seems the people of Slashdot - no matter how educated - have no further workable solutions.
Frankly, school days were the worst days of my life. People, they do get better, but it takes time. Thankfully, you have a wide audience here at Slashdot who emphasise with you. Is there any way we can manage to perform some level of councilling and maybe provide a slightly brighter outlook on the world to those who are at their lowest ebb?