That's a clear warning for me as well.
I had tried so many times to keep rapport with my doctors and even coming back to them about the side effects but it was too slow and time consuming. However, i try to make up an urgent appointment when there is a side-effect (stiff muscles are the worst ones as it's like a very strong cramps, you are unable to control it and it gets very tiring and very painful that your muscles felt like tearing) happening just a fews later to a week or two because of the monthly injections - which is a pain as i have to ask the doctor if i should counter the side-effects or are there other ways to avoid it.
The dangerous part of this countering side-effects is additional medication like benzhexol (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trihexyphenidy) which can be addictive.
First, I really understand what you're saying. This is a tough situation, but I'm certain you can make it through.
You're being really wise not to isolate yourself. Spending time with people will make a very substantial difference in both how you feel and your general recovery. Isolation, even with caring family will hurt you. Please keep on trying to interact with people.
In terms of mental health... what you're describing sounds more like bipolar and less like schizophrenia. Schizophrenia can be medicated, if you're serious about it, carefully monitored, and have a good support system. Bipolar is a bit rougher, and you'll have to recognize what's happening to you yourself, and with the help of family and friends. Be very careful when you're manic - I know it can feel awesome, but the code you produce can be pretty damn awful. Depressed code is less of an issue as you'll likely not write that much.
You'll find that folks in CS tend to be very understanding of mental health issues. Very, very understanding. We're in an industry filled with intelligent and generally caring people, and you'll find support. Just be honest with your colleagues about how you're doing, and most importantly, make sure your first priority is taking care of yourself.
Thanks bstarrfield,
I was diagnose as schizoaffective (schizoprenia with bipolar mania) but the doctor re-diagnosed me again as schizophrenia. (i have to talk to her again)
Isolation is the problem that i had even with a supportive family as i was trying to keep up managing the exciting moments and failures. Having consistent running thoughts can be really tiring and trying to manage the illusion of talking with your remote co-workers and your family who may not be there at work which i felt may be a hazard.
Having a co-worker whom you can at least talk about work would be a great help. I had been trying to pick up a casual conversation with my co-workers online but it gets worse day after day. Working in person however, allows me to see their faces an at least do not come to assumptions (which i had tried to manage so hard) that triggers these emotions.
CS people are very nice, (Computer user groups which you can meet monthly, offline) i think family support is as important as the small support of looking at what's happening to your co-workers (at least by looking at their face to get a reality check) and talk about work problems in person.:)
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That's a clear warning for me as well. I had tried so many times to keep rapport with my doctors and even coming back to them about the side effects but it was too slow and time consuming. However, i try to make up an urgent appointment when there is a side-effect (stiff muscles are the worst ones as it's like a very strong cramps, you are unable to control it and it gets very tiring and very painful that your muscles felt like tearing) happening just a fews later to a week or two because of the monthly injections - which is a pain as i have to ask the doctor if i should counter the side-effects or are there other ways to avoid it. The dangerous part of this countering side-effects is additional medication like benzhexol (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trihexyphenidy) which can be addictive.
First, I really understand what you're saying. This is a tough situation, but I'm certain you can make it through.
You're being really wise not to isolate yourself. Spending time with people will make a very substantial difference in both how you feel and your general recovery. Isolation, even with caring family will hurt you. Please keep on trying to interact with people.
In terms of mental health... what you're describing sounds more like bipolar and less like schizophrenia. Schizophrenia can be medicated, if you're serious about it, carefully monitored, and have a good support system. Bipolar is a bit rougher, and you'll have to recognize what's happening to you yourself, and with the help of family and friends. Be very careful when you're manic - I know it can feel awesome, but the code you produce can be pretty damn awful. Depressed code is less of an issue as you'll likely not write that much.
You'll find that folks in CS tend to be very understanding of mental health issues. Very, very understanding. We're in an industry filled with intelligent and generally caring people, and you'll find support. Just be honest with your colleagues about how you're doing, and most importantly, make sure your first priority is taking care of yourself.
Thanks bstarrfield, I was diagnose as schizoaffective (schizoprenia with bipolar mania) but the doctor re-diagnosed me again as schizophrenia. (i have to talk to her again) Isolation is the problem that i had even with a supportive family as i was trying to keep up managing the exciting moments and failures. Having consistent running thoughts can be really tiring and trying to manage the illusion of talking with your remote co-workers and your family who may not be there at work which i felt may be a hazard. Having a co-worker whom you can at least talk about work would be a great help. I had been trying to pick up a casual conversation with my co-workers online but it gets worse day after day. Working in person however, allows me to see their faces an at least do not come to assumptions (which i had tried to manage so hard) that triggers these emotions. CS people are very nice, (Computer user groups which you can meet monthly, offline) i think family support is as important as the small support of looking at what's happening to your co-workers (at least by looking at their face to get a reality check) and talk about work problems in person. :)