Another guy says he's his twin...now we have triplets. I'd say you're preaching to the choir here, but apparently not...Someone pass this man the door prize, he's right on. Hell, I may even archive this message for later. It's nice to know I'm not alone.
MTV ran an animated show a while back called "Downtown". Like most good things on MTV, it got yanked. I've been searching, to no avail, to find the episodes (for free or for sale), including the "lost" 13th episode. Same for The Maxx, MTV released a video but cut out the majority of the episodes. Ideas?
jl004j@mail.rochester.edu
A little personal anecdote:
Like a bunch of other users I've read on here, I went through the same crap. Junior high and high school are thankfully now a long, awful, blur. A few random instances spring to mind, particularly with bullies. Few friends, all the assorted things that go along with it.
I always had violence on the mind and it made me a very angry, very unhappy person. I had a bad bout with depression my sophomore year of high school, and thankfully my parents recognized it and forced me into some therapy. It made all the difference in the world. He said to me that he firmly believed that 99% of the population ought to be in therapy. Should any parents read this, I would absolutely urge you to consider it. You do not have to be crazy to go into therapy. Really.
I grew out of it. The problem was, I was a new person stuck in the old environment with the old relationships. Then I got to go off to college.
Firstly, I'm a big believer in gut feelings. When choosing a school, the environment has to be right. You'll know it when you see it. There's nothing like a change of environment. Upstate New York is also a hell of an attitude change. I'm now the happiest person I can ever remember being. I like my classes, I love my school, I love meeting people, dance, art, and other things I never would have considered. Not a total change, I still love punk music and computers. I'm still a geek, to be sure. The point is that yes, it does get better. If I can do it, I do feel that most people can. Put yourself somewhere that you want to be, surround yourself with people that you want to be with, to whatever extent possible. I'm not suggesting to change yourself, because two years ago I wouldn't have listened. I'm suggesting that you let yourself be open to change. It takes time to be secure in your own personality. It takes some soul-searching, too. I've made a distinct effort to not hate anything anymore. Removing it from one's vocabulary does wonders.
Oh, and I read some users that suggested fighting back as the solution. I could never do it. I tried several different types of martial arts but could never stick with it. It took me a long time to figure out why. I can't stand violence. It wasn't the thought of what people would do to me, it's what I would do to someone else, the things that they were teaching me. The thought of violence makes me sick physically. Now, I'm not saying that it isn't a solution. I'm saying that fighting is not the solution for everyone. Weigh out the pros and cons and decide for yourself. And note that I *do* play Counter-Strike:).
No matter how bad it gets, never forget that you are loved. I lost sight of it for a while. You are a special person, you have your own story, and you can contribute things that nobody else can. And, in case this massive outpouring from the Slashdot community hasn't convinced you of it, you are not alone.
-Justin
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Another guy says he's his twin...now we have triplets. I'd say you're preaching to the choir here, but apparently not...Someone pass this man the door prize, he's right on. Hell, I may even archive this message for later. It's nice to know I'm not alone.
MTV ran an animated show a while back called "Downtown". Like most good things on MTV, it got yanked. I've been searching, to no avail, to find the episodes (for free or for sale), including the "lost" 13th episode. Same for The Maxx, MTV released a video but cut out the majority of the episodes. Ideas? jl004j@mail.rochester.edu
A little personal anecdote: Like a bunch of other users I've read on here, I went through the same crap. Junior high and high school are thankfully now a long, awful, blur. A few random instances spring to mind, particularly with bullies. Few friends, all the assorted things that go along with it. I always had violence on the mind and it made me a very angry, very unhappy person. I had a bad bout with depression my sophomore year of high school, and thankfully my parents recognized it and forced me into some therapy. It made all the difference in the world. He said to me that he firmly believed that 99% of the population ought to be in therapy. Should any parents read this, I would absolutely urge you to consider it. You do not have to be crazy to go into therapy. Really. I grew out of it. The problem was, I was a new person stuck in the old environment with the old relationships. Then I got to go off to college. Firstly, I'm a big believer in gut feelings. When choosing a school, the environment has to be right. You'll know it when you see it. There's nothing like a change of environment. Upstate New York is also a hell of an attitude change. I'm now the happiest person I can ever remember being. I like my classes, I love my school, I love meeting people, dance, art, and other things I never would have considered. Not a total change, I still love punk music and computers. I'm still a geek, to be sure. The point is that yes, it does get better. If I can do it, I do feel that most people can. Put yourself somewhere that you want to be, surround yourself with people that you want to be with, to whatever extent possible. I'm not suggesting to change yourself, because two years ago I wouldn't have listened. I'm suggesting that you let yourself be open to change. It takes time to be secure in your own personality. It takes some soul-searching, too. I've made a distinct effort to not hate anything anymore. Removing it from one's vocabulary does wonders. Oh, and I read some users that suggested fighting back as the solution. I could never do it. I tried several different types of martial arts but could never stick with it. It took me a long time to figure out why. I can't stand violence. It wasn't the thought of what people would do to me, it's what I would do to someone else, the things that they were teaching me. The thought of violence makes me sick physically. Now, I'm not saying that it isn't a solution. I'm saying that fighting is not the solution for everyone. Weigh out the pros and cons and decide for yourself. And note that I *do* play Counter-Strike :).
No matter how bad it gets, never forget that you are loved. I lost sight of it for a while. You are a special person, you have your own story, and you can contribute things that nobody else can. And, in case this massive outpouring from the Slashdot community hasn't convinced you of it, you are not alone.
-Justin