And that right there makes your entire post pointless. Because you do not know why you are in the center you have no idea how you became the center and are unable to help those of us who have always been stick in the corner.
It's not that most people are genuinely normal and weirdos have to wear camouflage to fake it. It's that most people wear camouflage, and weirdos refuse to do so.
Wouldn't life be better if we all did not wear camouflage?
However, it has been shown that graduates of the DARE program are more likely to use drugs as teenagers than kids who didn't go through the program.
Hell, when I went through the DARE program in 8th grade the main lesson I took from it was "Where can I get these things to experience new realities?" and "That would be cool to feel like I'm dreaming without going to sleep!"
Dam I wish I had mod points. This is one of the best sites to get information on any drug. It is one heck of a education even if you never plan on using the drug yourself.
Minor correction, The Witcher had to be retextured to remove all of the nudity before it was released in the USA. Thankfully the developers finally released their official uncensor patch.
USA has proublems with nudity and sex. EU has proublems with violence. Germany has proublems with Nazis.
It is a shame that in this day and age a creator must be forced to change his work in order for it to be publicly viewed. Hell, even da Vinci's Vitruvian Man had to be censored in the Assassin's Creed 2 trailer.
Then I stopped paying for monthly subscriptions and reunited my life with the real world. I learned something when I did that. WoW and video games in general, as much fun as they are, shield you from the joys of reality.
Some of us want to be shielded from reality. For some of us, before we discovered MMOs our reality was filled with disappointment, loneliness, sadness, and a utterly pointless grind day after day from which we can see no escape.
I used to think about killing myself just about every day. I did not understand how people could go to the same job and do the same thing every day. Then, my company offered a voluntary layoff. I did the math and realized I could live for more then 6 months off my savings and the money they would pay me. I jumped at the chance.
Now, even though my life is no more fulfilling then it was when I was working at least I now have the flexibility to jump from distraction to distraction when my mind feels like it instead of being forced to sit in a 3.5 wall card board box 8+ hrs every day.
Exactly. I have realized the impermanence of everything, I have used Wiki and know that the sun will burn out in a few billion years, and I have decided to play video games for the remainder of my existence.
For those who say sex is the prime motivation. I guess if you have not experienced it (and have no reason to think you will ever experience it) then you do not know what you are missing.
Well everyone needs a job to survive. Instead of working to pay for food you are working to pay for maintenance on the bodies. Also, the main characters had military issue bodies which would be alot more expensive and be able to alot of damage.
I'd need to re-watch the series but I thought there were some episodes showing civilian cyber bodies.
I think that full cyberization was still expensive however cyberbrains and their less intrusive relative, the sub-brain, are as common as cell phones. So even if it is cost prohibitive to augment you body completely you could at the very least instantly share thoughts and ideas in a more...pure form then we can today.
Actually I much prefer the GiTS vision of the future over any other that I'v seen. I look forward to the day when I can no longer tell where my brain ends and the computer begins. Maybe when everyone can have their bodies enhanced in what ever way you want them to be then people can truly be judged by the content of their character.
You learn by doing. Much the same way you learn to type. You start off chicken pecking and a with some work you start to type faster and faster and faster. You type faster because your brain adapts and no longer needs visual input to know where the keys are, your finger muscles get stronger so you can move your hands faster.
Another example, games. I used to only be able to play first person shooters on the PC. I was one of those people who said "you cant get better then a mouse and keyboard" and "there is no way you can play a fps on a console". Then Halo 2 came out while I was in college, and everyone had to play it. I did not want to at first cause I though I would suck. And I did suck. I could bearly look and move at the same time. However, after playing it for a month I started to get used to moveing and aiming with a controller. I started likeing the fact I could go from a slow walk to a full run just by tilting the stick more. Today I can pick up a console shooter and play it as naturaly as I can a shooter on the PC.
With the brain interface I dont think it will be much different. At first you will really have to focus on each letter or word to get it to display but after a while it would get eaiser and eaiser for words to just appear on screen and before you know it you are makeing fully formed paragraphs with no more effort then simply thinking about what you want it to say.
At the time, it felt like defeat, like I was too weak, etc. to figure things out by myself.
This is what I think some times. When I was in college and I saw people I knew going out to a party I would get kinda jealous of them, but a second latter I would think to myself "fuck that, I dont need to go out to have a good time" and go back to playing Final Fantasy.
Before I lost my job I was tempted a few times to use some of these medical benefits I was paying for to go see someone, but I decided I did not want to be a cry baby and bother someone else with my proublems.
At times I will get the idea in my head that there really is something wrong with me (even tho I have thought for most of my life that there is something wrong with everyone else) and I should try and find some kind of help. However, the idea sputters out before anything can really come from it (usually I just remind myself about how pointless everything is).
I guess the proublem is that I just dont know. Everything I have done in my life so far has just come naturally. I never had to spend more then 30 min studying for a test in high school or college. I got accepted to every college I applied to. I got my first real job in less then 3 months after college without spending more then 2-hrs a week submitting applications. I'v always had an obtainable goal (I go to high school after 8th grade, 4 years later I go to college, 4 years later I get a job).
I worked my first real job for a year and a half. After being there for about 6 months I started wondering what should I do next. Do I just stay here till I'm 60 and die off a few years later? Do I go back to college at some point and try something else?
That's my proublem, I just dont know what to do.
I find it amazing that I have no proublem posting all this stuff on the internet where anyone can read it but I find it impossible to talk to anyone IRL about it.
Exactly. It is very depressing that so few girls out there know anything about technology, let alone are the least bit interested in it. It would not be a proublem if it weren't for the fact everything I do for fun or I'm interested in involves technology. How are you suposed to find someone with common interest with those odds?
Reading this, I cannot help but thing that it would not be a problem if it weren't for the fact that everything you do for fun or are interested in involves technology.
The world is big, man. Are you sure that there isn't anything else out there that isn't at least a little interesting to you? There may not be a lot of women interested in technology, but there are a LOT of women you can accept that you're interested in technology if they see that there is more to you than that.
I'v been surrounded by technology my whole life. I'v been playing video games sence I was 8. I build my first computer at like 11. I went to a engineering school and got a degree in Electrical Engineering. When the power goes out I suddenly find my self with nothing to do except stare into space.
I dont know what to do. How am I suposed to change my interest that I have developed over the past 24 years? How am I suposed to be a more exciting person? I DONT KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO.
Sucks to be you, but it's no skin off my back. It's up to each and every man to help himself. If you are too weak to do what it takes to improve yourself, then the gene pool is better off without you buddy.
Yes, it does suck to be me. And post like that dont help either.
Excuse me while I go kill myself. I know I'll at least make you happy.
Actually, sad to break this to you, but just about everything you do in your life is simply "passing time." Whether it's watching TV, playing a game, chatting at the pub, going mountaineering, tuning your car, reading a book, going to the theatre, having sex, getting married, having childern, growing old, or whatever else.
It is easy to say "well you lack drive, and that is what is wrong with you." The answer is rejected out of hand, since such people are clear-minded enough to see that the only reason they "lack drive" is because the meaningless bullshit that drives most people is precisely that...meaningless bullshit...and hence they simply can't get excited about it, even if they try.
This is exactly my proublem. I see everything people do as pointless. Getting an education. So what, everything you learn will be outdated in 10-20 years anyways. Worrying about health care. So what, your gona die anyways. Worrying about their children. So what, they are gona have a pointless and meaningless life filled with misery and disappointment just like you had. Worrying about the environment. So what, the sun is going to over heat the earth in about a billion years.
Need I go on.
The only question I have not answered is how people can continue to live apparently happy lives if they realize this. And if they do not realize this then how could they miss it. If they have seen the things I'v seen and learned the things I'v learned then how can they not see that life is a pointless race to death and everything you do in life is a distraction from the fact that NOTHING MATTERS.
The problem is that 90% of people who consider themselves "introverts" are actually just nerds with no social skills. The reason they don't enjoy interaction with others is because they're not any good at it. The cure for this, of course, is to go out, socialize, meet people, and develop their social skills. Try telling them that, though; they'd rather sit at home and brood about life.
You are missing the answer here. The reason "nerds with no social skills" like me dont go out and practice the social skills is because we are no good at socializing. It is a fucking feedback loop.
Example: I am not good at socializing. I go out to practice social skills. I have a bad experience because of my lack of social skills. As a result I find it harder to go out and practice socializing again. I would like to avoid negative experiences, therefore if my social experiences have been negative then I am less likely to attempt another social experience.
I wish I could erase all the negative social experiences from grade school, middle school, high school. If I could then maybe I would be more apt to try socializing again.
Exactly. It is very depressing that so few girls out there know anything about technology, let alone are the least bit interested in it. It would not be a proublem if it weren't for the fact everything I do for fun or I'm interested in involves technology. How are you suposed to find someone with common interest with those odds?
I NEED to be around other people, despite my object-at-rest tendency to avoid them. I NEED to have someone to share things with. I NEED to be important to other people.
I think you might be right about this. Sence college I'v felt like I need to get out and get friends. Like I need to find a girlfriend. I feel like once I have these things life might not feel as pointless as it does now.
However, I have no idea what I need to do in order to obtain those goals. I dont know where I should go to meet people who might have the same interest as I do. I have no clue where to go to meet girls who might be interested in me. On top of that I find it almost impossible to talk to people unless they talk to me first.
All of these things just push back on those needs.
The result is a stand still and ends with me 8ft under at an early age.
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But I have no idea why??
And that right there makes your entire post pointless. Because you do not know why you are in the center you have no idea how you became the center and are unable to help those of us who have always been stick in the corner.
It's not that most people are genuinely normal and weirdos have to wear camouflage to fake it. It's that most people wear camouflage, and weirdos refuse to do so.
Wouldn't life be better if we all did not wear camouflage?
I, for one, welcome our Borg overlords.
I remember The Last Starfighter and I liked the military-test-in-a-video-game reference to it at the beginning of SGU.
No, it is the ESRB that rates it AO and then it does not get sold in stores.
However, it has been shown that graduates of the DARE program are more likely to use drugs as teenagers than kids who didn't go through the program.
Hell, when I went through the DARE program in 8th grade the main lesson I took from it was "Where can I get these things to experience new realities?" and "That would be cool to feel like I'm dreaming without going to sleep!"
Dam I wish I had mod points. This is one of the best sites to get information on any drug. It is one heck of a education even if you never plan on using the drug yourself.
Minor correction, The Witcher had to be retextured to remove all of the nudity before it was released in the USA. Thankfully the developers finally released their official uncensor patch.
USA has proublems with nudity and sex. EU has proublems with violence. Germany has proublems with Nazis.
It is a shame that in this day and age a creator must be forced to change his work in order for it to be publicly viewed. Hell, even da Vinci's Vitruvian Man had to be censored in the Assassin's Creed 2 trailer.
Then I stopped paying for monthly subscriptions and reunited my life with the real world. I learned something when I did that. WoW and video games in general, as much fun as they are, shield you from the joys of reality.
Some of us want to be shielded from reality. For some of us, before we discovered MMOs our reality was filled with disappointment, loneliness, sadness, and a utterly pointless grind day after day from which we can see no escape.
I used to think about killing myself just about every day. I did not understand how people could go to the same job and do the same thing every day. Then, my company offered a voluntary layoff. I did the math and realized I could live for more then 6 months off my savings and the money they would pay me. I jumped at the chance.
Now, even though my life is no more fulfilling then it was when I was working at least I now have the flexibility to jump from distraction to distraction when my mind feels like it instead of being forced to sit in a 3.5 wall card board box 8+ hrs every day.
Exactly.
I have realized the impermanence of everything, I have used Wiki and know that the sun will burn out in a few billion years, and I have decided to play video games for the remainder of my existence.
For those who say sex is the prime motivation. I guess if you have not experienced it (and have no reason to think you will ever experience it) then you do not know what you are missing.
Well everyone needs a job to survive. Instead of working to pay for food you are working to pay for maintenance on the bodies. Also, the main characters had military issue bodies which would be alot more expensive and be able to alot of damage.
I'd need to re-watch the series but I thought there were some episodes showing civilian cyber bodies.
I think that full cyberization was still expensive however cyberbrains and their less intrusive relative, the sub-brain, are as common as cell phones. So even if it is cost prohibitive to augment you body completely you could at the very least instantly share thoughts and ideas in a more...pure form then we can today.
Actually I much prefer the GiTS vision of the future over any other that I'v seen. I look forward to the day when I can no longer tell where my brain ends and the computer begins. Maybe when everyone can have their bodies enhanced in what ever way you want them to be then people can truly be judged by the content of their character.
You learn by doing. Much the same way you learn to type. You start off chicken pecking and a with some work you start to type faster and faster and faster. You type faster because your brain adapts and no longer needs visual input to know where the keys are, your finger muscles get stronger so you can move your hands faster.
Another example, games. I used to only be able to play first person shooters on the PC. I was one of those people who said "you cant get better then a mouse and keyboard" and "there is no way you can play a fps on a console". Then Halo 2 came out while I was in college, and everyone had to play it. I did not want to at first cause I though I would suck. And I did suck. I could bearly look and move at the same time. However, after playing it for a month I started to get used to moveing and aiming with a controller. I started likeing the fact I could go from a slow walk to a full run just by tilting the stick more. Today I can pick up a console shooter and play it as naturaly as I can a shooter on the PC.
With the brain interface I dont think it will be much different. At first you will really have to focus on each letter or word to get it to display but after a while it would get eaiser and eaiser for words to just appear on screen and before you know it you are makeing fully formed paragraphs with no more effort then simply thinking about what you want it to say.
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At the time, it felt like defeat, like I was too weak, etc. to figure things out by myself.
This is what I think some times. When I was in college and I saw people I knew going out to a party I would get kinda jealous of them, but a second latter I would think to myself "fuck that, I dont need to go out to have a good time" and go back to playing Final Fantasy.
Before I lost my job I was tempted a few times to use some of these medical benefits I was paying for to go see someone, but I decided I did not want to be a cry baby and bother someone else with my proublems.
At times I will get the idea in my head that there really is something wrong with me (even tho I have thought for most of my life that there is something wrong with everyone else) and I should try and find some kind of help. However, the idea sputters out before anything can really come from it (usually I just remind myself about how pointless everything is).
I guess the proublem is that I just dont know. Everything I have done in my life so far has just come naturally. I never had to spend more then 30 min studying for a test in high school or college. I got accepted to every college I applied to. I got my first real job in less then 3 months after college without spending more then 2-hrs a week submitting applications. I'v always had an obtainable goal (I go to high school after 8th grade, 4 years later I go to college, 4 years later I get a job).
I worked my first real job for a year and a half. After being there for about 6 months I started wondering what should I do next. Do I just stay here till I'm 60 and die off a few years later? Do I go back to college at some point and try something else?
That's my proublem, I just dont know what to do.
I find it amazing that I have no proublem posting all this stuff on the internet where anyone can read it but I find it impossible to talk to anyone IRL about it.
Reading this, I cannot help but thing that it would not be a problem if it weren't for the fact that everything you do for fun or are interested in involves technology.
The world is big, man. Are you sure that there isn't anything else out there that isn't at least a little interesting to you? There may not be a lot of women interested in technology, but there are a LOT of women you can accept that you're interested in technology if they see that there is more to you than that.
I'v been surrounded by technology my whole life. I'v been playing video games sence I was 8. I build my first computer at like 11. I went to a engineering school and got a degree in Electrical Engineering. When the power goes out I suddenly find my self with nothing to do except stare into space.
I dont know what to do. How am I suposed to change my interest that I have developed over the past 24 years? How am I suposed to be a more exciting person? I DONT KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO.
Sucks to be you, but it's no skin off my back. It's up to each and every man to help himself. If you are too weak to do what it takes to improve yourself, then the gene pool is better off without you buddy.
Yes, it does suck to be me. And post like that dont help either.
Excuse me while I go kill myself. I know I'll at least make you happy.
Actually, sad to break this to you, but just about everything you do in your life is simply "passing time." Whether it's watching TV, playing a game, chatting at the pub, going mountaineering, tuning your car, reading a book, going to the theatre, having sex, getting married, having childern, growing old, or whatever else.
Fixed it for you.
The other die-hard gamers I know...one is pencil-thin.
I used to be almost pencil-thin. That was before my metabolism took a nose dive.
24 fat and depressed. So, more of a under/over average for me.
I mean I've put on a few pounds after 30...
Hell, I put on 30 pounds after moving out after college and eating what I want when I want. Now I'm dreading 30.
It is easy to say "well you lack drive, and that is what is wrong with you." The answer is rejected out of hand, since such people are clear-minded enough to see that the only reason they "lack drive" is because the meaningless bullshit that drives most people is precisely that...meaningless bullshit...and hence they simply can't get excited about it, even if they try.
This is exactly my proublem. I see everything people do as pointless.
Getting an education. So what, everything you learn will be outdated in 10-20 years anyways.
Worrying about health care. So what, your gona die anyways.
Worrying about their children. So what, they are gona have a pointless and meaningless life filled with misery and disappointment just like you had.
Worrying about the environment. So what, the sun is going to over heat the earth in about a billion years.
Need I go on.
The only question I have not answered is how people can continue to live apparently happy lives if they realize this. And if they do not realize this then how could they miss it. If they have seen the things I'v seen and learned the things I'v learned then how can they not see that life is a pointless race to death and everything you do in life is a distraction from the fact that NOTHING MATTERS.
The problem is that 90% of people who consider themselves "introverts" are actually just nerds with no social skills. The reason they don't enjoy interaction with others is because they're not any good at it. The cure for this, of course, is to go out, socialize, meet people, and develop their social skills. Try telling them that, though; they'd rather sit at home and brood about life.
You are missing the answer here. The reason "nerds with no social skills" like me dont go out and practice the social skills is because we are no good at socializing. It is a fucking feedback loop.
Example:
I am not good at socializing. I go out to practice social skills. I have a bad experience because of my lack of social skills. As a result I find it harder to go out and practice socializing again. I would like to avoid negative experiences, therefore if my social experiences have been negative then I am less likely to attempt another social experience.
I wish I could erase all the negative social experiences from grade school, middle school, high school. If I could then maybe I would be more apt to try socializing again.
Exactly. It is very depressing that so few girls out there know anything about technology, let alone are the least bit interested in it. It would not be a proublem if it weren't for the fact everything I do for fun or I'm interested in involves technology. How are you suposed to find someone with common interest with those odds?
I NEED to be around other people, despite my object-at-rest tendency to avoid them. I NEED to have someone to share things with. I NEED to be important to other people.
I think you might be right about this. Sence college I'v felt like I need to get out and get friends. Like I need to find a girlfriend. I feel like once I have these things life might not feel as pointless as it does now.
However, I have no idea what I need to do in order to obtain those goals. I dont know where I should go to meet people who might have the same interest as I do. I have no clue where to go to meet girls who might be interested in me. On top of that I find it almost impossible to talk to people unless they talk to me first.
All of these things just push back on those needs.
The result is a stand still and ends with me 8ft under at an early age.