just buy an xbox, you are probably watching illegal downloaded content anyways (do people really care about the crap on the net and stupid idiodic videos of their kids doing retarded crap?)
Just get an xbox with a mod chip, throw in a bigish harddrive and XBMP and you are about to have the best dvd / divx / ogg / wmv / etc. player you've ever used. Get the component / hdtv kit and fill your pants.
Or you can be a lame "legal and free until I die!" and wait for some half crap linux solution to come out. OOOOOHHHHHH I PREVENTED BILL GATES FROM MAKING $200 I AM SO REVOLUTIONARY!
Go with what works.
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The one thing you are missing here is relative scales. Cellular products working on 900mhz or whatever are just the same sorts of antennas that WISPs use. I worked on the deployment of a NAN in downtown Toronto and the technology of WiFi is equally viable as throwing cellular antennas up on towers. There are a couple of actual issues here.
1) Tower space is very expensive. The room for antennas is quite limited for new WiFi installation (on the same scale) as 9xxmhz or other cell equipment generally occupies the ideal antenna locations. Additionally the LOS requirements of 2.4+ghz WiFi make this a little bit less ideal than does lower frequency (thus better penetrating) technologies.
The lack of open source or even inexpensive management and network operations software / hardware make it less feasible (at the moment) than cellular. Just the general lack of cheap units with dual radios makes long range roaming fairly impossible. This will change in the short term, provided that WiFi doesn't go the route of cellular and become a per-minute per-packet large-corp-only business.
The real advantages of WiFi come with its robustness as well as its bandwidth potential. Once you start using Technologies Everyone SHOULD use But Don't(tm) like ipsec you start to have somewhat higher bandwidth needs. Because larger bandwidth with present technology =! higher costs (in fact SHOULd equal lower costs if it wasn't for strong telco resistance) little things like crypto and routing overhead should not make a difference. Nor should p2p traffic, streaming, etc.
The BIG advantage of using WiFi or mixed WiFi / hardline service with good QoS and intelligent ToS / cost-based routing / p2p filtering (i.e. slow down foreign packets / encouraging mature protocols (i.e. torrent, edonkey) is that the major costs of P2P become much much easier to swallow. Hint: multicasting p2p over WiFi is *really* efficient. = )
For those out there who have $100K/year jobs -- a economically unsustainable and generally damaging concept in and of itself -- go ahead and blow your packet charges on cellular. Enjoy 19.2k connections.
For those who still have a glimmer of the spirit of WiFi, the spirit of a free internet and people who enjoy being able to downloads hundreds of gigs a month of whatever they please -- WiFi has much, much MUCH more potential.
If anyone says "don't worry, you can come to us! We just want to help you..." walk away, as fast as you can.
When they say "Just trust us, we are going to get you help" spit in their eye.
And when they say "The only person who can help you is you, when you are ready to be helped..." stand up and yell "SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND LET ME".
Well, my main problem was always drugs, I was a heavy ketamine user for about 4 years. Its ironic that even though ketamine dulls your emotions (that is an understatement) which was a welcome diversion from depression -- now that I am running with no meds, no psychoactive drugs and am pretty much "cleaned out" -- I feel so incredibly emotionally flat that its made just getting through the day hard. Its weird to say it, but I almost miss being depressed just to feel anything.
Through all i've been through including being thrown forcibly into crackhead street-person detox, various useless shrinks and "counsellors", none of it was really useful. I will never forget the feeling of being in a institutionalized setting for a couple of days and just being like "OH HELL" im willing to sell out in whatever way possible, and say whatever just to get the fuck out of here. Sitting shaking in a room filled with people with obvious TB or STD's who are drooling, wondering how many times you will get beaten with soap and pillowcase over the night because you looked at someone. Just hoping someone will bring you enough smokes and small change that you can buy a little bit of protection while your brain is going loop-de-doo from the drugs they gave you on the way in.
Thats the ticket to better health. Right there. Is it scare tactics? is it "forced self-re-evaluation"? is it "beating some sense into a thick skull?"...
I love how this thread has generated lots of "ADHD DOESN'T EXIST" or "LAZY MAN SYNDROME" or "DEPRESSION IS FOR PUSSIES" kind of replies. Well, good for you, same sorts of people who beat their kids and whos wives will fake it for life.
The ironic thing is that my encounters with people with depression, borderline personality issues, ADHD, manic behavior -- are often really creative, intelligent and interesting people. I meet them mid-way through "therapy" and see a line of beaten, resigned and confused individuals. Dealing with depression was a bitch. Dealing with drug addiction was a bitch. Dealing with recovery is a bitch. Normal life is a bitch. Whats the answer? Life is a bitch. deal with it.
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i've also heard of good results with small amounts of L-Dopa... good luck getting it though.
ADHD has been explained to me before as "too much dopamine causing over-motivation" but that was by a "counsellor" and not a "cluebie"
really, I don't know. I'm not an ADHD kid, I am a depression kid.
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I have been coping with depression and mood swings, although I had serious problems with intermittent hyperactivity in high school, which I "grew out of". I am now 25 and still have difficulty with mood, etc. Heavy drug use complicated things as well.
In January 2002 my depression was at its worst and I decided to start doing more research into brain chemistry and try to start making some positive decisions. At this point I started refining various regimens similar to what you have been taking.
The most critical thing I have found is to get *enough* sleep and *enough* stimulation. Too much or too little sleep seems to throw *whatever* brain chemicals are present out of whack. Too much stimulation, stress or worry seems to do the same. You spoke of being emotionally flatlined -- well, if you are an extreme person you are going to cause this to happen.
I read a couple of online forums which have since disappeared which helped me get my vitamins in order -- I take a mineral + base vitamin supplement (Life Brand senior's vitamins, better mix of minerals than most "SUPER HIGH POTENCY" adult crap) then I add on C, B-50 Complex, E, Calcium+Mag+Zinc (very important if you are a sexually active male) and Salmon Oil. Occasionally I take a small amount of Ginkgo and Ginseng, both only in the morning.
In Feburary 2002 I was in a deep depression and I was put on a massive dose of Zoloft. Over the period of 1995 - 2002 I was on and off doses of zoloft up to 200mg. It made me a zombie, 100% impotent and the depression was still there. I would usually end up doing opiates or anaesthetics to just zonk my emotions out anyways. I started ramping the dose of Zoloft down but since I was working 3 jobs totalling around 70-80 hours a week in high stress conditions I wasn't getting alot of sleep either (this is very easy on a high dose of Zoloft. You just don't sleep.) I finally got sick of the constant withdrawl effects of zoloft and went cold turkey. THIS IS A VERY BAD IDEA... this was compounded by my shrink "firing me" for a variety of reasons. I hit the wall very very hard. The additional complication was that I was taking 5-HTP in the evening to help with sleep. As the dose of the Zoloft was supposed to be dropping in my body over the next two weeks I increased the amount of 5-HTP I was taking both in the morning and in the evening to about 250mg a shot. After the psychosis of the Zoloft cold-turkey (serious) began to subside I felt better for a couple of days, then all of a sudden I turned red, my body went up to about 105oF and I started hallucenating. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I got sent home from work and slept it off for a few days. My doctor told me in passing that it was probably serotonin syndrome and that I should have gone to Emerg.
So just a warning. Don't mess around with SSRI's and 5-HTP (or l-tryptophan) and MOST IMPORTANTLY DO NOT TAKE St. JOHN'S WORT WTHIN 1 MONTH OF A LARGE SSRI DOSE!!!
Next Point. I have in the meantime reduced my "illegal" drug intake to nil, reduced my sugar and caffeine intake to almost nil, started sleeping at least 6hrs/night or more and started a sauna/cardio/weights program a few days a week. Over the year I helped the down bumps with 5-HTP and when I was over-stimulated I went for a run. Now when I get depressed or excitable it seems to be able to run itself out without drama in an hour like other people seem to do.
The problem is that in the meantime it can be a very long process to get to that point.
Remember, MORE dopamine and MORE serotonin are only sometimes the answer, sometime you just need a little tiny bump. A glass of red wine or some red meat can in some cases do WONDERS.
of course you are going to feel better on ritalin. People generally feel better and get more done (for a while) after taking speed, which is what methylphenidate (ritalin) is. Then you move to adderol. Or crystal meth. Fun.
5-HTP is the precursor to tryptophan which is the precursor to serotonin. ADHD is a dopamine-based complex, at least in theory. Thus, a change in serotonin might make you more docile, satisfied, relaxed or sleep better as well as increasing your body's ability to self-regulate -- however this will likely not have a major effect on the ADHD itself. Thats fundamentally like taking an aspirin to heal a wound. P.S. the aspirin doens't make the wound heal faster, it just makes you stop itching it.
If you have been an excessive coffee drinking / stimulant abuser / etc. you may have developed an ADHD like complex where your body is so used to its dopamine levels being controlled externally that it no longer properly regulates. This is a Very Bad Thing(tm)... think parkinsons in later life. Not fun.
Try eating less refined sugar and caffeine and waiting 6-10 months. Go to bed earlier and keep a schedule. Of course, regular exercise is very important provided it is in moderation. Eating lots of carbs is probably not going to help either.
I'm not a doctor, i'm too stupid. But sometimes common sense is smrt.
Well, for starters... I work for a chinese import/export/do anything else for money - type of company in Markham, Ontario, Canada. We do a great deal of our business in chinese as well (i am a gwai lo) and most of our customers are chinese. Lately we have been mostly exporting computer equipment rather than important, as the market has taken a massive twist -- they will pay us *any* price for the very hardware that was made in china in the first place... but that they could never afford. Pentium and 486 computers (especially linux compatible ones) are bought up by the container load as fast as we can get them... and they want them badly! That is where the internet growth is. The internet grew in big business... yes. But the internet really caught on through email, even before the internet... fidonet.
There are two major problems with Chinese internet.
1) The chinese language is extremely effective at keeping people under the control of the nation. The chiense language from a linguistical standpoint is incredibly primitive and basically useless. Its chief advantage is that chinese are proud of their language and assume that other languages are equally hard to learn.
The issue here is that it is an evolved symbolistical character set which is *very* difficult to use effectively on a computer
also, it has a... culturally normalizing effect, because it actually *stifles* the free transit of ideas because people jsut don't know what alot of the words are... and the majority of chinese can barely read or write whatever language they do speak. The key to wealth in china is through education. This is partly the problems behind the Cultural Revolution and various other things at other times in China... in china, both information and the spread of information have a massively destabilizing effect.
2) Chinese people do not communicate (no hong kong people)... Like other countries with poorly developed and highly regionalized languages, especially those who rely so heavily on cultural and systematic tradition there is little to no new communication and even basic human function can be stifled.
So what I am sayign is, legions of identical chinese language websites will do very little to change the status quo in china. Access to outside information is of little use either... because translation via automated means to chinese is basically impossible, and even then only the rich and elite could ever udnerstand what is actually *written*.
Additionally, remember how many people had to suffer for that plastic toy or television set you just bought. Underpricing through inhumane labour has destroyed our ability to sustain our markets, and it has created a general hatred of the US outside of china... henry ford was right on the money when he said that workers needed to be able to afford whatever they are making!!!
The long term solution here is to 1) destabilize the chinese economy to prevent it from becoming reliant on handouts and technology-indebtedness
2) encourage the use of real languages like Hangeul (check it out, its amazing) Russian, English or any other decent alphabetic language
3) Provide content that is easier to read, i.e. less buzzwords, shorter words, less crap.
4) Provide translated websites with limited content to give "hints" and get people excited, i.e. giving them incentives to learn a decent language.
My analogy of china is a bunch of people who each know about 1% of the cobol language, walking around doing the dirty grudge labour for the masses of the world who know C++, Perl, etc.
75GXP 60 gig and 30 gig, 6+ months on the 30 gig on a machine which is on a table that gets constant jostling. Drive has been under heavy load and above normal temperatures for its entire lifetime. Not a single bad sector.
In fact i've spec'd about 150 systems with 75GXP drives and not ONE has been returned or any negative reports. Maybe you slashdot people have been using too much ghetto equipment around the drives because these units have lasted a hell of alot longer than any of the other drives I have ever bought.
I've always configured boxes with linux in mind... for 2D machines I usually use:
Quantum IDE HDD, BX board, ATI RagePro 8MB, 3COM 3c59x compatible and a standard ATAPI cd-rom drive.
Works A-OK out of the box with X3 and X4, for all my purposes...
For 3D I am using a Voodoo 3000 card... since I bought it, i've had 0 problems in Windows or Linux... works 100%, no issues whatsoever. I dont give a ratsazz about frame rates, who cares about FPS... I find the visual quality of Q3 and other games to be just grand on my V3
GREG
some of us happen to like porn, and like it alot. Also, one must remember that the internet's fast rise was based on two things: 1) Porn. 2) Research. The whiners, the legislators and the children came later. Along with the big companies and all their associated ruination. What rights does the American Government have in mandating what is/is not displayed on the Internet. Just because a portion of the physicality of the internet lies in the United States, the only thing they can do is control the access points (disallow computers + modems) or remove all physical connections at the countries borders. Attempting to mandate the content in and out of the United States is a futile matter. GREG
Never had problems with either of our BP6's here... they have both run 2.3.x before without problems. Regarding heat... We have our Cel500's running pretty hard here and with only the fans + heatsinks from Intel in action + no extra case fans we have NEVER even come within 10oC of the safe maximum it seems like the heat really plateaus after a certain amount of fast rise.
Its nice to see that they are porting rendering software. But it will be really nice if they ever manage to get useful modelling et al. tools... renderers are a nice step... its a pity theres no real software to run on those Visual Workstataions under windows and what-not. Too bad microsoft owns Softimage... Thats something I'd really like to see Please don't reply saying anything including "BMRT, Povray, Blender, Midnight Modeller" or any of that open-source nonsense. These tools have nothing compared to Maya's modeller, SoftImage or even 3DSMAX
I agree with everything your saying -- Did I ever mention that as a DBA I used the OEM and schema manager? Nada. I think I made a comment about those tools as well as the wizards causing one to lose control of the database and run to the Oracle default specs. I.e. the default database on an NT system sets default_tablespace to SYSTEM for all users... I also would argue, just as you say, that the UNIX version is better for mission-critical Oracle applications. I use NT just as much as I use Unixes... I'm not a raving Linux advocate... although I have found Oracle to fit neatly like a glove with the Oracle architecture. When you mention the scalability of Oracle... keep in mind that the product you are using -- 8i Enterprise -- is the top of that scale. Before you get inflamatory and start personally insulting me, perhaps you should re-read my comments and compare them to your own -- you'll find that your fancy wording actually says much the same things as I wrote. My comment about Oracle for NT is that it is basically under the same train of design as NT itself -- sacrifice some performance and stability on the flipside of increased usability and visual representation? It certainly does make corporate sense to have DBA's with a quick-and-dirty MCSE, yesno?
yeah your're right about the price.. i was missing that one... There is a full price list on the main site if you dredge through the bullshit enough. Yeah... I ran Oracle for Linux 8.0.5.1 vs. Oracle for NT 8.0.5.3 (i think) on identical hardware. I never bothered with benchmarks -- Just from the lousy long install process I gave up on the NT version. ick. I've noticed very different performance between the eval versions and the real versions too.
1) for you who don't know what Oracle is: Its a database. Not like mSQL or PostGres or Microsoft SQL server... it is a device-indendent, SQL based database. Oracle 8 for Linux (retail $12,800 USD, this is a demo version) is designed for 2-100 Gig databases. It is designed to properly operate on any sort of hardware -- AIX, VMS, HP-UX, Linux, NT, SCO, Solaris, etc. on and on and on. 2) If you are excited by oracle 8I and have less than 256 megs of ram on your linux box, don't bother downloading oracle 8i. Its designed with Terabyte and Petabyte databases in mind. 3) Oracle for NT is not even a competing product to Oracle for Unice... The unix versions of Oracle are stable, efficient system from a decade of testing and development. For server functionality, you can't beat Oracle on a mainframe and Linux in my experience shows the same maturity. I doubt Oracle8i for NT would even run properly i.e. the 100% CPU spike bug. 4) There is one function of Oracle8 for Linux that is lacking -- all of the functions are character mode. There is no motif support (maybe its in 8i, havent downloaded it yet, site is BUSY)... under NT you get pretty tools like Enterprise Manager, Schema Manager and simplistic install tools. Without these, Oracle is very difficult to learn and understand from a DBA perspective. However, the NT tools make DBA's follow the Oracle-defined idea of performance and installation, which according to O'Reilly's DBA books is the LAST thing you want to do. Since most Oracle installs on NT i've seen are 100% out of the box (the SQL command line is rarely seen) this is another performance hit. For these rambling reasons, Oracle on Linux is a strong presence... Unfortunately, we must keep in mind that these are beta developer releases and the real meal deal starts at $10,000 USD++++++ Gerg
Theres one thing to keep in mind (although this really doesn't matter for us hardcore linux fans) These test results are the difference between the corporate world (i.e. all the millions of M.I.S. people who base their decisions on the glossy mags) and the hacker world. To a CIO we hear in the mainstream media "NT is 45.0 percent faster than linux!" and their university or MCSE drones say "We are afraid of Unix, buy NT" and Microsoft sez "we'll throw in a ski trip for your admins!" and guess what. BSD / Linux / Unix / Etc. lose. Thats it.
Then again, I probably would actually piss myself laughing if we get another "Billy Madison" or "Office Space" in the theatre... mmmm... alcohol-related-comedy-enhanced-pants-wetting.
I can program in multiple languages, configure routers and do hardware maintainance, yet I still cannot program the da*m VCR. Anyone else feel the same way?
L'Ecole Polytechnique isn't a highschool. Its a a "poly technic institute"... Its about 5 blocks from my house, I know. At the same time, you can't treat that situation the same. There is one fundamental difference. The man in the EP shootings was wacko from the start. The two shooters in denver were only 1) Able to justify their actions because it was acceptable in their peer group (they probably couldn't have done it if it was only 1 person) and 2) it was caused by external stress rather than specific internal defects. I went to a Canadian highschool. For those of you outside of the cushy suburbian and urban atmosphere (which geographically is much more of canada) like where I grew up, everyone has guns. Not just little handguns and.22 rifles but BIG guns. Very few of these are obtained "legally" or are registered. The difference is that country kids are raised with a sort of awe of guns. Guns are not fantastic things which cause pleasure. Like a tractor or car they are essential tools (groundhogs and other rodents are a real threat to crops or livestock due to disease or consumption.) and we learn how to safely operate them. There is absolutely no place for guns within a city. Its when city people get guns, or people get guns for the reason of intended or implied use against humans that guns begin to cause trouble.
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don't fuck around with a stupid software phone.
just get a grandstream budgetel or a sipura or a wisip or any number of other SIP hardware phones.
You will be happy you did. I am.
plus wearing stupid headsets looks retarded.
just buy an xbox, you are probably watching illegal downloaded content anyways (do people really care about the crap on the net and stupid idiodic videos of their kids doing retarded crap?)
t .p hp
Just get an xbox with a mod chip, throw in a bigish harddrive and XBMP and you are about to have the best dvd / divx / ogg / wmv / etc. player you've ever used. Get the component / hdtv kit and fill your pants.
Or you can be a lame "legal and free until I die!" and wait for some half crap linux solution to come out. OOOOOHHHHHH I PREVENTED BILL GATES FROM MAKING $200 I AM SO REVOLUTIONARY!
Go with what works.
http://www.xboxmediaplayer.de/newweb/news_lates
The one thing you are missing here is relative scales. Cellular products working on 900mhz or whatever are just the same sorts of antennas that WISPs use. I worked on the deployment of a NAN in downtown Toronto and the technology of WiFi is equally viable as throwing cellular antennas up on towers. There are a couple of actual issues here.
1) Tower space is very expensive. The room for antennas is quite limited for new WiFi installation (on the same scale) as 9xxmhz or other cell equipment generally occupies the ideal antenna locations. Additionally the LOS requirements of 2.4+ghz WiFi make this a little bit less ideal than does lower frequency (thus better penetrating) technologies.
The lack of open source or even inexpensive management and network operations software / hardware make it less feasible (at the moment) than cellular. Just the general lack of cheap units with dual radios makes long range roaming fairly impossible. This will change in the short term, provided that WiFi doesn't go the route of cellular and become a per-minute per-packet large-corp-only business.
The real advantages of WiFi come with its robustness as well as its bandwidth potential. Once you start using Technologies Everyone SHOULD use But Don't(tm) like ipsec you start to have somewhat higher bandwidth needs. Because larger bandwidth with present technology =! higher costs (in fact SHOULd equal lower costs if it wasn't for strong telco resistance) little things like crypto and routing overhead should not make a difference. Nor should p2p traffic, streaming, etc.
The BIG advantage of using WiFi or mixed WiFi / hardline service with good QoS and intelligent ToS / cost-based routing / p2p filtering (i.e. slow down foreign packets / encouraging mature protocols (i.e. torrent, edonkey) is that the major costs of P2P become much much easier to swallow. Hint: multicasting p2p over WiFi is *really* efficient. = )
For those out there who have $100K/year jobs -- a economically unsustainable and generally damaging concept in and of itself -- go ahead and blow your packet charges on cellular. Enjoy 19.2k connections.
For those who still have a glimmer of the spirit of WiFi, the spirit of a free internet and people who enjoy being able to downloads hundreds of gigs a month of whatever they please -- WiFi has much, much MUCH more potential.
Gregory
Oh yeah and the most important part to remember.
..." stand up and yell "SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND LET ME".
If anyone says "don't worry, you can come to us! We just want to help you..." walk away, as fast as you can.
When they say "Just trust us, we are going to get you help" spit in their eye.
And when they say "The only person who can help you is you, when you are ready to be helped
Gregory
Well, my main problem was always drugs, I was a heavy ketamine user for about 4 years. Its ironic that even though ketamine dulls your emotions (that is an understatement) which was a welcome diversion from depression -- now that I am running with no meds, no psychoactive drugs and am pretty much "cleaned out" -- I feel so incredibly emotionally flat that its made just getting through the day hard. Its weird to say it, but I almost miss being depressed just to feel anything.
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Through all i've been through including being thrown forcibly into crackhead street-person detox, various useless shrinks and "counsellors", none of it was really useful. I will never forget the feeling of being in a institutionalized setting for a couple of days and just being like "OH HELL" im willing to sell out in whatever way possible, and say whatever just to get the fuck out of here. Sitting shaking in a room filled with people with obvious TB or STD's who are drooling, wondering how many times you will get beaten with soap and pillowcase over the night because you looked at someone. Just hoping someone will bring you enough smokes and small change that you can buy a little bit of protection while your brain is going loop-de-doo from the drugs they gave you on the way in.
Thats the ticket to better health. Right there. Is it scare tactics? is it "forced self-re-evaluation"? is it "beating some sense into a thick skull?"
I love how this thread has generated lots of "ADHD DOESN'T EXIST" or "LAZY MAN SYNDROME" or "DEPRESSION IS FOR PUSSIES" kind of replies. Well, good for you, same sorts of people who beat their kids and whos wives will fake it for life.
The ironic thing is that my encounters with people with depression, borderline personality issues, ADHD, manic behavior -- are often really creative, intelligent and interesting people. I meet them mid-way through "therapy" and see a line of beaten, resigned and confused individuals. Dealing with depression was a bitch. Dealing with drug addiction was a bitch. Dealing with recovery is a bitch. Normal life is a bitch. Whats the answer? Life is a bitch. deal with it.
Gregory
i've also heard of good results with small amounts of L-Dopa... good luck getting it though.
ADHD has been explained to me before as "too much dopamine causing over-motivation" but that was by a "counsellor" and not a "cluebie"
really, I don't know. I'm not an ADHD kid, I am a depression kid.
Gregory
I have been coping with depression and mood swings, although I had serious problems with intermittent hyperactivity in high school, which I "grew out of". I am now 25 and still have difficulty with mood, etc. Heavy drug use complicated things as well.
... this was compounded by my shrink "firing me" for a variety of reasons. I hit the wall very very hard. The additional complication was that I was taking 5-HTP in the evening to help with sleep. As the dose of the Zoloft was supposed to be dropping in my body over the next two weeks I increased the amount of 5-HTP I was taking both in the morning and in the evening to about 250mg a shot. After the psychosis of the Zoloft cold-turkey (serious) began to subside I felt better for a couple of days, then all of a sudden I turned red, my body went up to about 105oF and I started hallucenating. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I got sent home from work and slept it off for a few days. My doctor told me in passing that it was probably serotonin syndrome and that I should have gone to Emerg.
In January 2002 my depression was at its worst and I decided to start doing more research into brain chemistry and try to start making some positive decisions. At this point I started refining various regimens similar to what you have been taking.
The most critical thing I have found is to get *enough* sleep and *enough* stimulation. Too much or too little sleep seems to throw *whatever* brain chemicals are present out of whack. Too much stimulation, stress or worry seems to do the same. You spoke of being emotionally flatlined -- well, if you are an extreme person you are going to cause this to happen.
I read a couple of online forums which have since disappeared which helped me get my vitamins in order -- I take a mineral + base vitamin supplement (Life Brand senior's vitamins, better mix of minerals than most "SUPER HIGH POTENCY" adult crap) then I add on C, B-50 Complex, E, Calcium+Mag+Zinc (very important if you are a sexually active male) and Salmon Oil. Occasionally I take a small amount of Ginkgo and Ginseng, both only in the morning.
In Feburary 2002 I was in a deep depression and I was put on a massive dose of Zoloft. Over the period of 1995 - 2002 I was on and off doses of zoloft up to 200mg. It made me a zombie, 100% impotent and the depression was still there. I would usually end up doing opiates or anaesthetics to just zonk my emotions out anyways. I started ramping the dose of Zoloft down but since I was working 3 jobs totalling around 70-80 hours a week in high stress conditions I wasn't getting alot of sleep either (this is very easy on a high dose of Zoloft. You just don't sleep.) I finally got sick of the constant withdrawl effects of zoloft and went cold turkey. THIS IS A VERY BAD IDEA
So just a warning. Don't mess around with SSRI's and 5-HTP (or l-tryptophan) and MOST IMPORTANTLY DO NOT TAKE St. JOHN'S WORT WTHIN 1 MONTH OF A LARGE SSRI DOSE!!!
Next Point. I have in the meantime reduced my "illegal" drug intake to nil, reduced my sugar and caffeine intake to almost nil, started sleeping at least 6hrs/night or more and started a sauna/cardio/weights program a few days a week. Over the year I helped the down bumps with 5-HTP and when I was over-stimulated I went for a run. Now when I get depressed or excitable it seems to be able to run itself out without drama in an hour like other people seem to do.
The problem is that in the meantime it can be a very long process to get to that point.
Remember, MORE dopamine and MORE serotonin are only sometimes the answer, sometime you just need a little tiny bump. A glass of red wine or some red meat can in some cases do WONDERS.
Anyways...
of course you are going to feel better on ritalin. People generally feel better and get more done (for a while) after taking speed, which is what methylphenidate (ritalin) is. Then you move to adderol. Or crystal meth. Fun.
... think parkinsons in later life. Not fun.
5-HTP is the precursor to tryptophan which is the precursor to serotonin. ADHD is a dopamine-based complex, at least in theory. Thus, a change in serotonin might make you more docile, satisfied, relaxed or sleep better as well as increasing your body's ability to self-regulate -- however this will likely not have a major effect on the ADHD itself. Thats fundamentally like taking an aspirin to heal a wound. P.S. the aspirin doens't make the wound heal faster, it just makes you stop itching it.
If you have been an excessive coffee drinking / stimulant abuser / etc. you may have developed an ADHD like complex where your body is so used to its dopamine levels being controlled externally that it no longer properly regulates. This is a Very Bad Thing(tm)
Try eating less refined sugar and caffeine and waiting 6-10 months. Go to bed earlier and keep a schedule. Of course, regular exercise is very important provided it is in moderation. Eating lots of carbs is probably not going to help either.
I'm not a doctor, i'm too stupid. But sometimes common sense is smrt.
Gregory
Whats the motivating factor then? Happiness? Hapiness doesn't exist.
I view anyone who does mission work with suspicion. They often take the moral high ground on everything.
Have you ever been homeless? The reason money doesn't matter to you is because that isn't real debt. You can pick up work anywhere, can't you.
I highly suspect you are more motivated by money than you think.
And money doesn't buy happiness, bceause happiness doesn't exist.
Gregory
People who claim to not be motivated by money are usually those who have it or favors in abundance.
Gregory.
Well, for starters ... I work for a chinese import/export/do anything else for money - type of company in Markham, Ontario, Canada. We do a great deal of our business in chinese as well (i am a gwai lo) and most of our customers are chinese. Lately we have been mostly exporting computer equipment rather than important, as the market has taken a massive twist -- they will pay us *any* price for the very hardware that was made in china in the first place ... but that they could never afford. Pentium and 486 computers (especially linux compatible ones) are bought up by the container load as fast as we can get them... and they want them badly! That is where the internet growth is. The internet grew in big business... yes. But the internet really caught on through email, even before the internet ... fidonet.
... culturally normalizing effect, because it actually *stifles* the free transit of ideas because people jsut don't know what alot of the words are ... and the majority of chinese can barely read or write whatever language they do speak. The key to wealth in china is through education. This is partly the problems behind the Cultural Revolution and various other things at other times in China ... in china, both information and the spread of information have a massively destabilizing effect.
... Like other countries with poorly developed and highly regionalized languages, especially those who rely so heavily on cultural and systematic tradition there is little to no new communication and even basic human function can be stifled.
... because translation via automated means to chinese is basically impossible, and even then only the rich and elite could ever udnerstand what is actually *written*.
... henry ford was right on the money when he said that workers needed to be able to afford whatever they are making!!!
There are two major problems with Chinese internet.
1) The chinese language is extremely effective at keeping people under the control of the nation. The chiense language from a linguistical standpoint is incredibly primitive and basically useless. Its chief advantage is that chinese are proud of their language and assume that other languages are equally hard to learn.
The issue here is that it is an evolved symbolistical character set which is *very* difficult to use effectively on a computer
also, it has a
2) Chinese people do not communicate (no hong kong people)
So what I am sayign is, legions of identical chinese language websites will do very little to change the status quo in china. Access to outside information is of little use either
Additionally, remember how many people had to suffer for that plastic toy or television set you just bought. Underpricing through inhumane labour has destroyed our ability to sustain our markets, and it has created a general hatred of the US outside of china
The long term solution here is to 1) destabilize the chinese economy to prevent it from becoming reliant on handouts and technology-indebtedness
2) encourage the use of real languages like Hangeul (check it out, its amazing) Russian, English or any other decent alphabetic language
3) Provide content that is easier to read, i.e. less buzzwords, shorter words, less crap.
4) Provide translated websites with limited content to give "hints" and get people excited, i.e. giving them incentives to learn a decent language.
My analogy of china is a bunch of people who each know about 1% of the cobol language, walking around doing the dirty grudge labour for the masses of the world who know C++, Perl, etc.
Anyways, that is my flamebait for today.
RageMaxis
75GXP 60 gig and 30 gig, 6+ months on the 30 gig on a machine which is on a table that gets constant jostling. Drive has been under heavy load and above normal temperatures for its entire lifetime. Not a single bad sector.
In fact i've spec'd about 150 systems with 75GXP drives and not ONE has been returned or any negative reports. Maybe you slashdot people have been using too much ghetto equipment around the drives because these units have lasted a hell of alot longer than any of the other drives I have ever bought.
-greg
Whats your problem with RagePro's??? They cost $10 and work faster for 2D than anything else i've tried.
I've always configured boxes with linux in mind ... for 2D machines I usually use:
Quantum IDE HDD, BX board, ATI RagePro 8MB, 3COM 3c59x compatible and a standard ATAPI cd-rom drive. ... ... since I bought it, i've had 0 problems in Windows or Linux ... works 100%, no issues whatsoever. I dont give a ratsazz about frame rates, who cares about FPS ... I find the visual quality of Q3 and other games to be just grand on my V3
Works A-OK out of the box with X3 and X4, for all my purposes
For 3D I am using a Voodoo 3000 card
GREG
some of us happen to like porn, and like it alot. Also, one must remember that the internet's fast rise was based on two things: 1) Porn. 2) Research. The whiners, the legislators and the children came later. Along with the big companies and all their associated ruination. What rights does the American Government have in mandating what is/is not displayed on the Internet. Just because a portion of the physicality of the internet lies in the United States, the only thing they can do is control the access points (disallow computers + modems) or remove all physical connections at the countries borders. Attempting to mandate the content in and out of the United States is a futile matter. GREG
Never had problems with either of our BP6's here ... they have both run 2.3.x before without problems. Regarding heat ... We have our Cel500's running pretty hard here and with only the fans + heatsinks from Intel in action + no extra case fans we have NEVER even come within 10oC of the safe maximum it seems like the heat really plateaus after a certain amount of fast rise.
Its nice to see that they are porting rendering software. But it will be really nice if they ever manage to get useful modelling et al. tools ... renderers are a nice step ... its a pity theres no real software to run on those Visual Workstataions under windows and what-not. Too bad microsoft owns Softimage ... Thats something I'd really like to see Please don't reply saying anything including "BMRT, Povray, Blender, Midnight Modeller" or any of that open-source nonsense. These tools have nothing compared to Maya's modeller, SoftImage or even 3DSMAX
I agree with everything your saying -- Did I ever mention that as a DBA I used the OEM and schema manager? Nada. I think I made a comment about those tools as well as the wizards causing one to lose control of the database and run to the Oracle default specs. I.e. the default database on an NT system sets default_tablespace to SYSTEM for all users... I also would argue, just as you say, that the UNIX version is better for mission-critical Oracle applications. I use NT just as much as I use Unixes ... I'm not a raving Linux advocate ... although I have found Oracle to fit neatly like a glove with the Oracle architecture. When you mention the scalability of Oracle ... keep in mind that the product you are using -- 8i Enterprise -- is the top of that scale. Before you get inflamatory and start personally insulting me, perhaps you should re-read my comments and compare them to your own -- you'll find that your fancy wording actually says much the same things as I wrote. My comment about Oracle for NT is that it is basically under the same train of design as NT itself -- sacrifice some performance and stability on the flipside of increased usability and visual representation? It certainly does make corporate sense to have DBA's with a quick-and-dirty MCSE, yesno?
only problem being that the files on the oracle FTP site are time-limited evaluations.
yeah your're right about the price .. i was missing that one ... There is a full price list on the main site if you dredge through the bullshit enough. Yeah... I ran Oracle for Linux 8.0.5.1 vs. Oracle for NT 8.0.5.3 (i think) on identical hardware. I never bothered with benchmarks -- Just from the lousy long install process I gave up on the NT version. ick. I've noticed very different performance between the eval versions and the real versions too.
1) for you who don't know what Oracle is: Its a database. Not like mSQL or PostGres or Microsoft SQL server ... it is a device-indendent, SQL based database. Oracle 8 for Linux (retail $12,800 USD, this is a demo version) is designed for 2-100 Gig databases. It is designed to properly operate on any sort of hardware -- AIX, VMS, HP-UX, Linux, NT, SCO, Solaris, etc. on and on and on. 2) If you are excited by oracle 8I and have less than 256 megs of ram on your linux box, don't bother downloading oracle 8i. Its designed with Terabyte and Petabyte databases in mind. 3) Oracle for NT is not even a competing product to Oracle for Unice ... The unix versions of Oracle are stable, efficient system from a decade of testing and development. For server functionality, you can't beat Oracle on a mainframe and Linux in my experience shows the same maturity. I doubt Oracle8i for NT would even run properly i.e. the 100% CPU spike bug. 4) There is one function of Oracle8 for Linux that is lacking -- all of the functions are character mode. There is no motif support (maybe its in 8i, havent downloaded it yet, site is BUSY) ... under NT you get pretty tools like Enterprise Manager, Schema Manager and simplistic install tools. Without these, Oracle is very difficult to learn and understand from a DBA perspective. However, the NT tools make DBA's follow the Oracle-defined idea of performance and installation, which according to O'Reilly's DBA books is the LAST thing you want to do. Since most Oracle installs on NT i've seen are 100% out of the box (the SQL command line is rarely seen) this is another performance hit. For these rambling reasons, Oracle on Linux is a strong presence ... Unfortunately, we must keep in mind that these are beta developer releases and the real meal deal starts at $10,000 USD++++++ Gerg
Theres one thing to keep in mind (although this really doesn't matter for us hardcore linux fans) These test results are the difference between the corporate world (i.e. all the millions of M.I.S. people who base their decisions on the glossy mags) and the hacker world. To a CIO we hear in the mainstream media "NT is 45.0 percent faster than linux!" and their university or MCSE drones say "We are afraid of Unix, buy NT" and Microsoft sez "we'll throw in a ski trip for your admins!" and guess what. BSD / Linux / Unix / Etc. lose. Thats it.
Speak Brother!
... mmmm... alcohol-related-comedy-enhanced-pants-wetting.
Then again, I probably would actually piss myself laughing if we get another "Billy Madison" or "Office Space" in the theatre
Ahhh.
I can program in multiple languages, configure routers and do hardware maintainance, yet I still cannot program the da*m VCR. Anyone else feel the same way?
L'Ecole Polytechnique isn't a highschool. Its a a "poly technic institute" ... Its about 5 blocks from my house, I know. At the same time, you can't treat that situation the same. There is one fundamental difference. The man in the EP shootings was wacko from the start. The two shooters in denver were only 1) Able to justify their actions because it was acceptable in their peer group (they probably couldn't have done it if it was only 1 person) and 2) it was caused by external stress rather than specific internal defects. I went to a Canadian highschool. For those of you outside of the cushy suburbian and urban atmosphere (which geographically is much more of canada) like where I grew up, everyone has guns. Not just little handguns and .22 rifles but BIG guns. Very few of these are obtained "legally" or are registered. The difference is that country kids are raised with a sort of awe of guns. Guns are not fantastic things which cause pleasure. Like a tractor or car they are essential tools (groundhogs and other rodents are a real threat to crops or livestock due to disease or consumption.) and we learn how to safely operate them. There is absolutely no place for guns within a city. Its when city people get guns, or people get guns for the reason of intended or implied use against humans that guns begin to cause trouble.