I am wondering how many people are out there who can't or don't want to take notes?
I almost never took notes. It was already too hard to concentrate and understand the material taught while taking notes on paper. Maybe I am not good at that. I was watching classmates copying everything that is on the table without understanding it and I was doing the same. It's a race where you try to copy as fast as possible all the material written in the board while you don't even have time to breath, not even trying to understand. Anyways, I have hard time to understand things in a lecture, I need more time alone to read it in a slower pace and understand it.
I remember in an interview of JC that he said he was feeling sorry about some good programmers who in their older age they quit programming and became software managers or something similar. Of course for people like JC, programming is something like reaching new frontiers, not just a regular boring job. I like such people in the industry who find a deeper meaning in their programming job. In the past I thought I would be programming till the end of times. But things change and recently I feel like the mid-life crisis is near. I adore people who can still program for fun and excel in their discipline at later age. Because it's harder for the rest of us.
Haha, I had a great laugh in this one! I wish I knew how these mod points things work out so that I could give some:P
Me and my computer graphics geek friends spent a lot of times looking at girls and joking how we admire her smooth phong shaded curves or how naturally moving the boobs physics routines work.
It's hard to make a point because there are different kinds of depressions and everybody sees depression from a different perspective.
For example, when I read in the article about ruminations, analytical thinking, being isolated to focus on a single problem, etc,. I identified with all of this. Also, I never thought I have clinical depression (Iirc, the depression that comes without any apparent reason at all, not being sad because you were dumped by your girlfriend or something) but there is some other kind of depression which in my opinion comes because of another chronic mental disease that makes your life horrible. In my case it's obsessive compulsive disorder but not the mainstream one (I don't do rituals) but the unseen one, Pure-O form of it that makes you worry and be ashamed about horrible thoughts that happened to pass through your mind.
The keyword 'ruminations' in the article is also a primary characteristic of OCD (both the ritualistic one and Pure-O) where you are bothered with endless thoughts that go into cycles and you can't let it go. While I had the cycling worries illogical thoughts ("If I trip on the cracks a good person will die" or being bothered by sexual/violent thoughts on people or situations you wouldn't like to have them) the same ruminations went for more "logical" worries (Did I just said something that has harmed someone? What if I forgot to lock the door and be robbed?). Generally, I was overthinking and overanalyzing and worrying about things too much and even if I wanted to tell my brain to shut up it wasn't possible. Add to all these, how they also affected my social life, how I was sensitive and school and being bullied all the time, how things didn't went nice in family too and you have an accumulation of sad experiences, negative thoughts, bad memories, a complex for other people's successful life, an isolation from people, awful feelings about myself and the ruminations continue on all these parts (What am I? Why am I not normal? Why is abnormal bad? Also revolving around "I need to have a life" to "Fuck real life! It's a lie.." and never finding a point of serenity).
They all add up and it becomes more complex, also my personality is based on these thoughts and if I could turn back and become just like the rest I would be more depressed because I wouldn't be me but what people dictated me to be (I had a lot of hate for criticism like "You should get a life! You should be just like the rest.."). It's all a complex pattern. (This kind of) depression is not weltschmerz but a result of a mental disorder that lead (or had very similar characteristics) to overthinking, deeply analyzing, worrying while the rest were just having fun in their ignorance and also a result from the social trauma for thinking and acting different than the rest.
"If you unrolled those loop then the only think you could use to escape had to be a goto in the line right after the end of the unrolled loops"
Sorry, I made a serious mistake here: Should be..use to escape had to be a goto (many actually, one for each unrolled line) TO the line right after the end of the unrolled loops"
I had to make bad excessive use of goto since my first qbasic demo ten years ago:)
There are few occasions though where it's the thing to do and one line of it doesn't make the code ugly. Yes, my old qbasic code was horrible (not only because of goto) but few good uses of it doesn't hurt. I find it stupid whenever I see other programmers cringe with the single mention of goto. First they should think if the case of the code where it's used justified it and then think twice about blindly disagreeing.
In an old demo I did for the GP32 handheld there was a smooth juhlia fractal effect I coded (with fixed point arithmetic, mirroring and all that) and I unrolled the loops to gain some more (some would say loop unrolling is senseless but on that hand held there was enough gain to justify). I specifically unrolled the sixteen iteration loops of the fractal algorithm where specific conditions might make it escape abruptly from the loop with a single break. If you unrolled those loop then the only think you could use to escape had to be a goto in the line right after the end of the unrolled loops. Of course someone who hated ugly stuff like loop unrolling and taboo things like goto could just avoid this method at all but I was just writting a demo and I wanted performance.
This is the only case in my code that I had to use a goto (and found it a good and fast solution actually).
I once was chatting with a programmer about female programmers.
He told me (and we were actually having a joke about it) about the bicycle test. If you ask a girl to draw a bicycle, it doesn't matter if artistically it's lame, usually (he said) women will draw a bicycle that mechanically it can't work (the chain will be missing or connected to the wrong part). They will design a piece that it will fail to function (they are missing the details). But most men will draw one that works in the details (petals, chain, right placed). I don't know if it's true but we were joking once about it.
As for programming girls, even if I don't want to spread stereotypes I will tell you my statistics. I once was quite obsessed discovering girls (especially in the demoscene) who can code and I was the creator of some stupid site called "The Female computer entities" (which make me feel silly when I think about it). From all the sample, most of the ones who actually made some good stuff or could even code assembly had something odd happening with their gender. The ones that were more "feminine" were writting the bad stuff and few of them argued that some people don't like their code because they are female (which was not true, I mean about the code stuff not the female stuff). It's like I could guess whether a female has a more male brain by her quality of work at code. Although exceptions might arise. I don't want to spread a stereotype but just to discuss from my experiences.
And thinking about that when a geek friend dreams of an ubercoder girlfriend we tell him to be carefull, joking of course:)
Actually, now you said 3-10 hours it sounded too much for my current motivation. As I grow up I play games for even less time, like 30 minutes in Mame, SNES or Amstrad CPC emulators and then loose the meaning. Recently I didn't even had the motivation to do that. I didn't like to play the tiniest game (as I wasn't in the mood to watch a movie or read a book and I just slept,.. ahhh midlife crisis?). It's even boring to install bigger games that take two DVDs and crawl on my PC.
So, now I am thinking it I am kinda depressed and overweight for sure, 29 years old and it's so depressing that I am bored to even play a game for 30 minutes. Maybe because I did it once and I find it meaningless? But isn't there something else? Programming for vain glory? Meaningless. Job? Meaningless? Girlfriend? Doesn't have any,.. wait what?!
I sorta agree with that but I'll just need to mention another side. Stereotypes are sometimes here for a reason but then they are enforcing cultural attitudes that individuals follow to belong to a group, which then makes them more true and attract more individual to specific stereotypical way of life and the cycle goes on.
For example, there are stereotypical behaviours, way of life, attitudes for a geek, but then some geeks are identified by these differences and try to act similar to the stereotypes. Then other geeks who doesn't necessary fit the stereotypes at first, are trying to find common links between those with the some hobbies and they follow the same root, trying to match the stereotypes and actually proving them. That's why amongs geeks we like to tell jokes about geeks not having a girlfriend or a life and we somehow feel connected to them. Although we have moved those stereotypes from something serious to something to joke about, some funny identification of our breed.
In a nutshell, it's like the chicken and the egg problem:)
That's exactly what shifted my attention from gaming to wishing to learn programming, during my sixteen. I thought, if I sit down and finish games like the rest of my mates (or at least those who were into computers) I will have accomplished nothing and especially I will have accomplished nothing more than the rest of my geek friends. I wanted something of more importance and something very few had the courage to get into. And that was programming. That's how it started but also became an obsession which lead in other kind of existential crisis like, ok I am an average programmer and there are godlike programmers whom I'll never reach, what's the point. But least it gave me a nice talent in programming and some good job opportunities after ten years into it.
But that's how I started now I am thinking it. I wanted to do something more unique than my average geek friend. I can enjoy gaming but pure gaming and no creativity doesn't cut it for me. Although, existential crisis occured to me even with programming. But it's still a good thing to have as a hobby.
Although, that thing with the endorphins is interesting to think..
Somehow the only thing that makes me feel I can be fred is to focus more on the idea that we are biological machines, that things might seem meaningless to us but that's how evolution brought it to the present and most of all that there is no meaning.
A thing too hard to grasp, something that might lead to nihilism but as long as you go closer to the realization that there is no meaning and that we are biological machines that happened to be, the more I feel more free and face the truth.
This is interesting, it reminds me of something I called "mental suicide". Maybe it's not the same with what you mean, maybe it is but I will describe it: I thought, people who couldn't cope anymore and wanted to commit suicide, why not commit mental suicide? Since those worries and burdens that make life hard or meaningless is inside you, why not wipe out your innerself and do things that you wouldn't normally do? If you are so extremely anxious about several things that you are closed to yourself why not, in a sense of reverse psychology, do exactly those things in the extreme and have fun and try not to care? Since there is no meaning anymore, you could do everything you wish without having doubts.
This was an old thought. But it doesn't work. It doesn't work to me. Somehow things are meaningles but they are still meaningful to let things loose and not be affected by our emotions. It is a thought but practically it's hard to... carpe diem.
I used to find meaning not with games but with my programming hobby. And being vain that I will become famous for it oneday. How vain!:/
Now I just reside to playing games, reading blogs, watching porn and asking those existential questions:P
When I type too fast on the internet I make phonetic (so do I call them) mistakes like: "I can sea you", instead of "I can see you" "I right a letter" instead of "I write a letter" etc.
Another problem is that my hands type blindly and follow paths of other words than the ones I wanted to write: I wanted to write "I have computed the values" and I write "I have computer the values" for example.
Those two strange problems occure after several years of writting on the keyboard that it goes too fast and my hands are like self living.
I hate it when I later read some of my submitted texts and find such stupid mistakes:P
I see a lot of informatics students in my place finishing their studies and telling me that they don't like programming. Some of them can't understand how I can start from scratch, from a blank piece of paper or monitor, read a programming problem, visualize the whole thing in my mind and like some kind of magic intuition the solution and right way to write this thing down comes in an instant. I didn't understood it was a talent till I tried to teach programming to some people and they wondered how did I instantly thought of the right solution and how did I avoided things not to do. For me the solution to the problems were obvious.
But then I remembered. I have been studying maths in the university but I never became able to solve those mathematic problems that need intuition to find the right path and avoid traps. In the same awe I am watching those math geniouses who somehow out of a magic intuition they instantly find the right path to the solution.
That's because for ten years I was waking up from my bed and thinking hard and obsessively on programming problems, algorithms and stuff that I wanted to code. While at the same time not being interested in solving the next math quiz. Instead of studying I was coding. But they don't teach you the intuition at university, just the theory and some practical exercises, if I ever wanted to be good at that I should be thinking of mathematical problems like crazy every day. I prefered programming problems instead.
And it shows that intelligence is not universal. I am very good at solving programming problems but at the same time too bad with math problems.
Now if all those informatics students were spending their time on programming as a hobby? But no, most students just want to have a life:)
Although reruns are frightening. The original tend to be more favorite. Doom 3 didn't end up like 1 or 2. They would possibly make a lousy EOB4 without the atmosphere of the first two. EOB2 is my favorite. EOB3 sucked.
Yep, I just have to agree on that. It's similar to some dude who just quit smoking and now goes bothering the rest of the smokers that it's not good.
There is one thing I can understand. All those people who say they went through the same thing too, shouldn't they still have awareness what a huge thing that was and how hard it was to overcome it? I mean, if I ever manage to do a much better effort and actually loose that weight, will I forget the struggle and simply come back and bitch other fat people? I see this attitude very frequently, not only in weight loss problems, and I don't get it..
You shouldn't be so harsh! I don't understand but most slashdot users here are critical, they think it's all about excuses, well it could be but how would you like it if I said that people who take drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, depressive, bipolar, obsessive compulsive, autistic, aspies, etc etc are all making excuses and are simply morons?
Duh. I hate that pure logical thing: overweight = you just eat too much and no exercise and are making excuses. I was listening to such pure logical things all my life and what they only managed to do is degrade me and not helping me with my problems, breaking down my self-esteem, thus not actually helping me overcoming all that things that actually made me succumb into passions as food and other things. All those people come with a strict look, start blaming and they are telling me they are here to help. But they are doing just exactly the opposite.
Let them give you excuses. Why do you care? Do you REALLY want to help those people? Or do you want to proove your ego that you are better over something? It all sounds like hate and loathing, not understanding. These people want understanding. Or if you can't give that just shut up!
It's not easy. Don't be too easy on blaming. It may look simple and practical but someone who is into it from childhood has to change a whole mindset. I myself am addicted to food and at the same time I am too lazy to exercise. Nothing works because I can't even make plans. I start with a diet/exercise plan and then I abandon it. Not only because I don't like this lifestyle but because I generally have an impulsive personality and tend to do what I like right at the time not what is written on the plan. I don't think I will find a sollution any soon (except if it is to accept that the only way is to change my lifestyle into something not currently desired)
The problem is psychological, it's a state of mind but it's not easy and someone shouldn't just blame people not following the right path. It's like someone is getting drugs and you are telling him that drugs are not good. He fuckin knows it!!! You are telling him the obvious..
It's the same when I watch skinny people who constantly tell me that they really want to gain weight but they can't. I am buffled, I say what? You wanna gain weight? To my view this is the easiest and funniest thing in the world! You just have to eat tons of juicy tasty food and that for the great good. However, for these people somehow it's too hard (psychologically) to eat. I may not get it as a person who loves food but it's the other side of reality.
If it was as simple as a diet/exercise plan then obesity wouldn't be a problem.
An interesting question too. Although to me this would mean that "normal" is subjective.
Well, someone would say "Ok,. follow the 'normal' that most people accept as that!". But why would someone like to do that when it's incompatible with his brain state and personality? At the end of this I have decided that it stopped making sense to me and all I can do is try to be myself (or actually not try, just let it come naturally) and if this brings misunderstanding, conflict or argument with the common people then in the meanwhile we can try to find some kind of solution (a middle one?)
Sometimes you come into this world and it just happens to have a different brain chemistry than most other people. This might create conflicts or confuse people who aren't hanging regularly with people like you. Because they expect the usual norms and attitude that they are used to from common people. Yet, the notion of "disorder" means really that and the incompatibility. There is not a disorder really, just neurodiversity. The only thing that remains is to find who we really are (and how differently our brain works than the norm) and find a ballance between our different state and the general population.
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I am wondering how many people are out there who can't or don't want to take notes?
I almost never took notes. It was already too hard to concentrate and understand the material taught while taking notes on paper. Maybe I am not good at that. I was watching classmates copying everything that is on the table without understanding it and I was doing the same. It's a race where you try to copy as fast as possible all the material written in the board while you don't even have time to breath, not even trying to understand. Anyways, I have hard time to understand things in a lecture, I need more time alone to read it in a slower pace and understand it.
I want one for my MP3 player!
I remember in an interview of JC that he said he was feeling sorry about some good programmers who in their older age they quit programming and became software managers or something similar. Of course for people like JC, programming is something like reaching new frontiers, not just a regular boring job. I like such people in the industry who find a deeper meaning in their programming job. In the past I thought I would be programming till the end of times. But things change and recently I feel like the mid-life crisis is near. I adore people who can still program for fun and excel in their discipline at later age. Because it's harder for the rest of us.
Gamepark GP2X or Wiz already run the GBA at full speed without frame skipping :)
This is still impressive for the DS though. I wonder if it will run in my cart..
Haha, I had a great laugh in this one! I wish I knew how these mod points things work out so that I could give some :P
Me and my computer graphics geek friends spent a lot of times looking at girls and joking how we admire her smooth phong shaded curves or how naturally moving the boobs physics routines work.
It's hard to make a point because there are different kinds of depressions and everybody sees depression from a different perspective.
For example, when I read in the article about ruminations, analytical thinking, being isolated to focus on a single problem, etc,. I identified with all of this. Also, I never thought I have clinical depression (Iirc, the depression that comes without any apparent reason at all, not being sad because you were dumped by your girlfriend or something) but there is some other kind of depression which in my opinion comes because of another chronic mental disease that makes your life horrible. In my case it's obsessive compulsive disorder but not the mainstream one (I don't do rituals) but the unseen one, Pure-O form of it that makes you worry and be ashamed about horrible thoughts that happened to pass through your mind.
The keyword 'ruminations' in the article is also a primary characteristic of OCD (both the ritualistic one and Pure-O) where you are bothered with endless thoughts that go into cycles and you can't let it go. While I had the cycling worries illogical thoughts ("If I trip on the cracks a good person will die" or being bothered by sexual/violent thoughts on people or situations you wouldn't like to have them) the same ruminations went for more "logical" worries (Did I just said something that has harmed someone? What if I forgot to lock the door and be robbed?). Generally, I was overthinking and overanalyzing and worrying about things too much and even if I wanted to tell my brain to shut up it wasn't possible. Add to all these, how they also affected my social life, how I was sensitive and school and being bullied all the time, how things didn't went nice in family too and you have an accumulation of sad experiences, negative thoughts, bad memories, a complex for other people's successful life, an isolation from people, awful feelings about myself and the ruminations continue on all these parts (What am I? Why am I not normal? Why is abnormal bad? Also revolving around "I need to have a life" to "Fuck real life! It's a lie.." and never finding a point of serenity).
They all add up and it becomes more complex, also my personality is based on these thoughts and if I could turn back and become just like the rest I would be more depressed because I wouldn't be me but what people dictated me to be (I had a lot of hate for criticism like "You should get a life! You should be just like the rest.."). It's all a complex pattern. (This kind of) depression is not weltschmerz but a result of a mental disorder that lead (or had very similar characteristics) to overthinking, deeply analyzing, worrying while the rest were just having fun in their ignorance and also a result from the social trauma for thinking and acting different than the rest.
Also, this damn interesting article.
"If you unrolled those loop then the only think you could use to escape had to be a goto in the line right after the end of the unrolled loops"
Sorry, I made a serious mistake here: ..use to escape had to be a goto (many actually, one for each unrolled line) TO the line right after the end of the unrolled loops"
Should be
I had to make bad excessive use of goto since my first qbasic demo ten years ago :)
There are few occasions though where it's the thing to do and one line of it doesn't make the code ugly. Yes, my old qbasic code was horrible (not only because of goto) but few good uses of it doesn't hurt. I find it stupid whenever I see other programmers cringe with the single mention of goto. First they should think if the case of the code where it's used justified it and then think twice about blindly disagreeing.
In an old demo I did for the GP32 handheld there was a smooth juhlia fractal effect I coded (with fixed point arithmetic, mirroring and all that) and I unrolled the loops to gain some more (some would say loop unrolling is senseless but on that hand held there was enough gain to justify). I specifically unrolled the sixteen iteration loops of the fractal algorithm where specific conditions might make it escape abruptly from the loop with a single break. If you unrolled those loop then the only think you could use to escape had to be a goto in the line right after the end of the unrolled loops. Of course someone who hated ugly stuff like loop unrolling and taboo things like goto could just avoid this method at all but I was just writting a demo and I wanted performance.
This is the only case in my code that I had to use a goto (and found it a good and fast solution actually).
I once was chatting with a programmer about female programmers.
He told me (and we were actually having a joke about it) about the bicycle test. If you ask a girl to draw a bicycle, it doesn't matter if artistically it's lame, usually (he said) women will draw a bicycle that mechanically it can't work (the chain will be missing or connected to the wrong part). They will design a piece that it will fail to function (they are missing the details). But most men will draw one that works in the details (petals, chain, right placed). I don't know if it's true but we were joking once about it.
As for programming girls, even if I don't want to spread stereotypes I will tell you my statistics. I once was quite obsessed discovering girls (especially in the demoscene) who can code and I was the creator of some stupid site called "The Female computer entities" (which make me feel silly when I think about it). From all the sample, most of the ones who actually made some good stuff or could even code assembly had something odd happening with their gender. The ones that were more "feminine" were writting the bad stuff and few of them argued that some people don't like their code because they are female (which was not true, I mean about the code stuff not the female stuff). It's like I could guess whether a female has a more male brain by her quality of work at code. Although exceptions might arise. I don't want to spread a stereotype but just to discuss from my experiences.
And thinking about that when a geek friend dreams of an ubercoder girlfriend we tell him to be carefull, joking of course :)
I bow to that!
Yey for story in games!
Actually, now you said 3-10 hours it sounded too much for my current motivation. As I grow up I play games for even less time, like 30 minutes in Mame, SNES or Amstrad CPC emulators and then loose the meaning. Recently I didn't even had the motivation to do that. I didn't like to play the tiniest game (as I wasn't in the mood to watch a movie or read a book and I just slept,.. ahhh midlife crisis?). It's even boring to install bigger games that take two DVDs and crawl on my PC.
So, now I am thinking it I am kinda depressed and overweight for sure, 29 years old and it's so depressing that I am bored to even play a game for 30 minutes. Maybe because I did it once and I find it meaningless? But isn't there something else? Programming for vain glory? Meaningless. Job? Meaningless? Girlfriend? Doesn't have any,.. wait what?!
I guess I need a change in my life..
I sorta agree with that but I'll just need to mention another side. Stereotypes are sometimes here for a reason but then they are enforcing cultural attitudes that individuals follow to belong to a group, which then makes them more true and attract more individual to specific stereotypical way of life and the cycle goes on.
For example, there are stereotypical behaviours, way of life, attitudes for a geek, but then some geeks are identified by these differences and try to act similar to the stereotypes. Then other geeks who doesn't necessary fit the stereotypes at first, are trying to find common links between those with the some hobbies and they follow the same root, trying to match the stereotypes and actually proving them. That's why amongs geeks we like to tell jokes about geeks not having a girlfriend or a life and we somehow feel connected to them. Although we have moved those stereotypes from something serious to something to joke about, some funny identification of our breed.
In a nutshell, it's like the chicken and the egg problem :)
That's exactly what shifted my attention from gaming to wishing to learn programming, during my sixteen. I thought, if I sit down and finish games like the rest of my mates (or at least those who were into computers) I will have accomplished nothing and especially I will have accomplished nothing more than the rest of my geek friends. I wanted something of more importance and something very few had the courage to get into. And that was programming. That's how it started but also became an obsession which lead in other kind of existential crisis like, ok I am an average programmer and there are godlike programmers whom I'll never reach, what's the point. But least it gave me a nice talent in programming and some good job opportunities after ten years into it.
But that's how I started now I am thinking it. I wanted to do something more unique than my average geek friend. I can enjoy gaming but pure gaming and no creativity doesn't cut it for me. Although, existential crisis occured to me even with programming. But it's still a good thing to have as a hobby.
Although, that thing with the endorphins is interesting to think..
Somehow the only thing that makes me feel I can be fred is to focus more on the idea that we are biological machines, that things might seem meaningless to us but that's how evolution brought it to the present and most of all that there is no meaning.
A thing too hard to grasp, something that might lead to nihilism but as long as you go closer to the realization that there is no meaning and that we are biological machines that happened to be, the more I feel more free and face the truth.
I don't know what comes next though..
This is interesting, it reminds me of something I called "mental suicide". Maybe it's not the same with what you mean, maybe it is but I will describe it: I thought, people who couldn't cope anymore and wanted to commit suicide, why not commit mental suicide? Since those worries and burdens that make life hard or meaningless is inside you, why not wipe out your innerself and do things that you wouldn't normally do? If you are so extremely anxious about several things that you are closed to yourself why not, in a sense of reverse psychology, do exactly those things in the extreme and have fun and try not to care? Since there is no meaning anymore, you could do everything you wish without having doubts.
This was an old thought. But it doesn't work. It doesn't work to me. Somehow things are meaningles but they are still meaningful to let things loose and not be affected by our emotions. It is a thought but practically it's hard to... carpe diem.
I used to find meaning not with games but with my programming hobby. And being vain that I will become famous for it oneday. How vain! :/
Now I just reside to playing games, reading blogs, watching porn and asking those existential questions :P
When I type too fast on the internet I make phonetic (so do I call them) mistakes like:
"I can sea you", instead of "I can see you"
"I right a letter" instead of "I write a letter"
etc.
Another problem is that my hands type blindly and follow paths of other words than the ones I wanted to write:
I wanted to write "I have computed the values" and I write "I have computer the values" for example.
Those two strange problems occure after several years of writting on the keyboard that it goes too fast and my hands are like self living.
I hate it when I later read some of my submitted texts and find such stupid mistakes :P
Well, exactly!
I see a lot of informatics students in my place finishing their studies and telling me that they don't like programming. Some of them can't understand how I can start from scratch, from a blank piece of paper or monitor, read a programming problem, visualize the whole thing in my mind and like some kind of magic intuition the solution and right way to write this thing down comes in an instant. I didn't understood it was a talent till I tried to teach programming to some people and they wondered how did I instantly thought of the right solution and how did I avoided things not to do. For me the solution to the problems were obvious.
But then I remembered. I have been studying maths in the university but I never became able to solve those mathematic problems that need intuition to find the right path and avoid traps. In the same awe I am watching those math geniouses who somehow out of a magic intuition they instantly find the right path to the solution.
That's because for ten years I was waking up from my bed and thinking hard and obsessively on programming problems, algorithms and stuff that I wanted to code. While at the same time not being interested in solving the next math quiz. Instead of studying I was coding. But they don't teach you the intuition at university, just the theory and some practical exercises, if I ever wanted to be good at that I should be thinking of mathematical problems like crazy every day. I prefered programming problems instead.
And it shows that intelligence is not universal. I am very good at solving programming problems but at the same time too bad with math problems.
Now if all those informatics students were spending their time on programming as a hobby? But no, most students just want to have a life :)
Although reruns are frightening. The original tend to be more favorite. Doom 3 didn't end up like 1 or 2. They would possibly make a lousy EOB4 without the atmosphere of the first two. EOB2 is my favorite. EOB3 sucked.
Yep, I just have to agree on that. It's similar to some dude who just quit smoking and now goes bothering the rest of the smokers that it's not good.
There is one thing I can understand. All those people who say they went through the same thing too, shouldn't they still have awareness what a huge thing that was and how hard it was to overcome it? I mean, if I ever manage to do a much better effort and actually loose that weight, will I forget the struggle and simply come back and bitch other fat people? I see this attitude very frequently, not only in weight loss problems, and I don't get it..
You shouldn't be so harsh! I don't understand but most slashdot users here are critical, they think it's all about excuses, well it could be but how would you like it if I said that people who take drugs, smoke, drink alcohol, depressive, bipolar, obsessive compulsive, autistic, aspies, etc etc are all making excuses and are simply morons?
Duh. I hate that pure logical thing: overweight = you just eat too much and no exercise and are making excuses. I was listening to such pure logical things all my life and what they only managed to do is degrade me and not helping me with my problems, breaking down my self-esteem, thus not actually helping me overcoming all that things that actually made me succumb into passions as food and other things. All those people come with a strict look, start blaming and they are telling me they are here to help. But they are doing just exactly the opposite.
Let them give you excuses. Why do you care? Do you REALLY want to help those people? Or do you want to proove your ego that you are better over something? It all sounds like hate and loathing, not understanding. These people want understanding. Or if you can't give that just shut up!
About most of the above replies:
It's not easy. Don't be too easy on blaming. It may look simple and practical but someone who is into it from childhood has to change a whole mindset. I myself am addicted to food and at the same time I am too lazy to exercise. Nothing works because I can't even make plans. I start with a diet/exercise plan and then I abandon it. Not only because I don't like this lifestyle but because I generally have an impulsive personality and tend to do what I like right at the time not what is written on the plan. I don't think I will find a sollution any soon (except if it is to accept that the only way is to change my lifestyle into something not currently desired)
The problem is psychological, it's a state of mind but it's not easy and someone shouldn't just blame people not following the right path. It's like someone is getting drugs and you are telling him that drugs are not good. He fuckin knows it!!! You are telling him the obvious..
It's the same when I watch skinny people who constantly tell me that they really want to gain weight but they can't. I am buffled, I say what? You wanna gain weight? To my view this is the easiest and funniest thing in the world! You just have to eat tons of juicy tasty food and that for the great good. However, for these people somehow it's too hard (psychologically) to eat. I may not get it as a person who loves food but it's the other side of reality.
If it was as simple as a diet/exercise plan then obesity wouldn't be a problem.
http://forgetomori.com/2008/science/enlarge-your-penis-data-bandwidth/
An interesting question too. Although to me this would mean that "normal" is subjective.
Well, someone would say "Ok,. follow the 'normal' that most people accept as that!". But why would someone like to do that when it's incompatible with his brain state and personality? At the end of this I have decided that it stopped making sense to me and all I can do is try to be myself (or actually not try, just let it come naturally) and if this brings misunderstanding, conflict or argument with the common people then in the meanwhile we can try to find some kind of solution (a middle one?)
Or, I simply stopped caring about 'normal'.
Interesting example.
Sometimes you come into this world and it just happens to have a different brain chemistry than most other people. This might create conflicts or confuse people who aren't hanging regularly with people like you. Because they expect the usual norms and attitude that they are used to from common people. Yet, the notion of "disorder" means really that and the incompatibility. There is not a disorder really, just neurodiversity. The only thing that remains is to find who we really are (and how differently our brain works than the norm) and find a ballance between our different state and the general population.